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Death Doesn't Let You Say Goodbye is the ninth episode of the first season and the 9th overall episode of Sense8.


Riley learns about her new life and its dangers, Kala deals with the aftermath of the attack on Rajan’s father, and Lito's world spins out of control.



Riley walks along the Icelandic coast, singing her childhood song, retracing the steps she once took as a child. She carries an oil lamp and enters a cave. There she finds a woman, singing the same song along with her. Riley realizes that Yrsa, the woman, sang along with her too as a child. Yrsa says that they sing terrible things to children to warn them of what's to come. Riley asks her if she's one of the Hidden People. Riley visits Yrsa at her apartment and realizes that Yrsa is a fellow sensate. Yrsa serves coffee and they talk. Riley asks her why she didn't tell the truth and Yrsa replies that she needed Riley to believe her that she's not safe in Iceland.


Lito is at a bar, depressed and drinking martinis. Lito tells his story and demonstrates with his hands. He says that he was living in two separate worlds. He says that they somehow crashed into each other, punching his fists as a demonstration. After telling the story, Lito expresses grief in his face and drinks up his martini then asks the bartender for another. The bartender asks Lito if he's celebrating or mourning, and Lito sighs then replies that he's celebrating. The bartender eyes him as he makes the martini. He tells Lito that he knows what he feels to live two lives. The bartender recognizes him from a movie where he had an evil twin. He talks about the importance of Lito's movie, The Mirror Has No Heart, that everyone having a secret self. He admits to Lito that he also have a secret self and he propositions Lito to go into the back room with him. Lito angrily rejects, saying that he's not a faggot. Lito drinks up and leaves the bartender with an upset look.


Yrsa explains why she lied to Riley. Yrsa talks about the BPO, which runs a DNA census in order to hunt down potential sensates. Yrsa worked inside the BPO as a nurse and tried to protect as many potential sensates from them as she could. Riley was one of those sensates. Riley was brought to a BPO lab by her mother, who wanted to know if Riley had the same genetic disease that her mother did. Yrsa saved Riley and told her she was hexed, so that she would leave Iceland. In the present, Riley is angry that Yrsa made Riley blame herself for the death of her mother, as well as the accident in the mountains. Yrsa apologizes for the unnecessary pain she caused but she points out that she was one that called the rescue authorities when Riley was stranded in the mountains. Riley asks Yrsa if she has children and Yrsa replies no. She says that she's afraid that her children will also be a sensate, and that they'd be hunted down and she has to feel them die. Riley recalls a memory from when she was stranded in the mountains with her baby.


Will has a childhood flashback, which present day Will occasionally take young Will's place. In the flashback he is hiding as he is spying on Whispers, who is operating on a child. Whispers leaves the room and Will slowly approaches the body. He inspects it and sees that it is Sara Patrell. Sara opens her eyes and tells Will not to look at Whispers. Angelica takes place of Sara and says, "That's how he got me." Sara tells Will to run because Whispers knows he's here. Will runs back to the place he was hiding but Whispers catches and grabs Will's ankle. Whispers repeatedly tells Will to look at him and Will then narrowly escapes. In the present, Will suddenly awakes from the dream. Will sits upright and gasps for air. He gets up and grabs a beer from the fridge. Will turns around and suddenly sees Jonas on his couch, visiting. Jonas is visibly shaken and is wearing a hospital mock. Jonas greets Will.


Riley says that Yrsa knew what was happening in the mountains and asks her why didn't she help. Yrsa apologizes and explains that she took terrible chances to help. She says she instinctively felt Riley in danger and that she called the authorities to rescue her from the mountains before she dies. Riley recalls again the scene, with her lying on the ground with her baby and a helicopter flying above them. Riley tells Yrsa that she had wanted to die back then so she could be with them. Yrsa sympathizes her. She says that when one of their cluster member died, she thought the pain would never go away. She explains that life hold onto people and sometimes give people another chance. Riley tells her that she didn't want another chance but Yrsa says that if she didn't, she wouldn't have come looking for her.


Will vists Jonas' location, a high-technology medical lab. Jonas is strapped to a chair and has electrodes connected to his forehead. Will asks Jonas what BPO is doing to him. Jonas explains that they're watching and measuring him. He tells Will that he'd have to visit him in his location so that BPO can't hear their conversation. Will and Jonas talk about visiting, that visiting is a voice in someone's head. Will is says that he has to get him out of BPO. Jonas says he'd I've been unconscious for so long that he could be anywhere. Will apologizes for getting Jonas into the situation. Jonas tells Will about Angelica, that she didn't believe in fault, as it was the present understood by people looking backward. He tells Will that they have to look forward for them to survive.


Yrsa says now she that she told Riley the truth, she will need to go on the run. Yrsa takes a pistol out of an old box and packs it in her bag. Yrsa says that Riley may be captured, and if so, BPO will be able to trace the connection back to Yrsa. She says that all it would take is one slip for Riley to end up in a hospital, and then be arrested. Riley tries to convince her that she'd be more careful and that she won't tell anyone about her if she gets caught. Yrsa says that BPO has techniques for tracing the psycellium. Riley is confused to hear the word "psycellium". Yrsa explains that it's a psychic nervous system that connect sensates to their cluster or other sensates. Yrsa says that they can hear the vibration of the psycellium and demonstrates it to her.

Will and Riley

As Yrsa demonstrates, Will appears visits Riley in the cave, saying that he knows all about BPO. Will, Riley, Jonas and Yrsa have a four-way conversation, although Jonas cannot see Riley and Yrsa, and Yrsa cannot see Jonas and Will. Both Jonas and Yrsa observe how Will and Riley have strong feelings for each other. Jonas remembers how he loved Angelica at first sight, and that Angelica believes sensates experience love in its purest form. While Yrsa says that love in a cluster is pathological and narcissistic. Yrsa tells Riley to ask Will his birthday, and they discover that Will and Riley have the same birthday, August 8th. Jonas says that all members of a cluster are born at the same moment. Riley says that she has to go and tells Will to help Jonas.

Upon hearing Riley mention Jonas, Yrsa becomes immediately frightened on hearing the name. Yrsa tells Riley to ask Will for his last name. Riley tells Yrsa his name is Jonas Maliki. Yrsa interrupts the connection between Will and Riley. Jonas tells Will that he needs to get Riley out of Iceland, because BPO operates a genetic research facility there. He tells Will that many sensates enter there and never come out . Yrsa guesses that Angelica birthed them. She tells her that Angelica and Jonas were collaborators with BPO. That they birth clusters and so that new sensates could be hunted down. Yrsa tells her that it won't take long until Whispers find Riley if Will is connected to Jonas. Yrsa suddenly ends her visit with Riley, saying "You're on your own".


Wolfgang sits beside Felix in the hospital, where they unconscious Felix and Wolfgang have earphones on and are watching a movie on a laptop. Sergei and his bodyguard enter the room. Wolfgang asks Sergei what his intention is. Sergei tells Wolfgang that he and Felix are his family. He comes near Felix and whispers to him, "Never listen to doctors, all they know is death". Sergei then goes to Wolfgang, and asks about life. Like Anton, Sergei also says that life is just five things: eating, shitting, drinking, fucking and fighting for more. He tells Wolfgang, that he used to tell him that and then punches him, just like Anton did to Wolfgang. Sergei says that after Anton was killed, he now believes that life is just one thing: revenge. He tells Wolfgang that he must realize that his theft was a mistake, and can go no further. Before Sergei leaves, he tells Wolfgang "I love you Wolfgang, but don't make me chose between you and my son".


Kala, Rajan and Sahana are at the police office. Kala is giving her statement on Manendra's attack. Kala gets asked questions about the attack and Manendra's motives. They ask what Kala and Manendra were talking about during the attack, and she does not fully answer. The seemingly religious detectives too also seem to have hatred on Manendra. At one point, they showed Sanyam and Priya next to them. They tell Kala that they she won't be able to pray on the temple again if Manendra's bill had been passed. Rajan stops the detectives from asking anymore questions and tells them that they can again with the presence of his lawyer. The detective leaves them. Kala is feeling guilty, believing that Manandra was attacked because of her. Rajan convinces Kala that she did nothing wrong.

Lito and Nomi

Lito sits at a museum, looking at Hernando's favorite piece of artwork. Lito reminisces his first date with Hernando. Hernando talks about a line in Lito's movie, The Passion of the Sinner, that it always makes him think of the museum. He talks about love, like art, is something that should be free and that it has no rules, expectation and limitations. As Hernando talk, Lito listens very closely with an interested expression. Hernando tells Lito that everytime he hears the line in the movie, he always gets reminded that "Love is like art."

Nomi is back in her apartment, cleaning the mess. Nomi turns around and sees Lito sitting on the couch. Nomi visits him and approaches a teary eyed Lito at the museum. She sits next to Lito and they recognize each other. They both admit that they're not having a good time at the moment. Nomi talks about how she was almost killed and that she went home. She says she was worried about Amanita, and their former happy life. Nomi asks about their location and Lito tells Nomi about the Diego Riviera museum. Nomi mentions Frida Kahlo, Diego Rievera's wife. Lito also mentions that the worst day of Diego Rivera's life was when Frida died, because he realized too late the best thing about his life was his love for her. From what Lito said, Nomi asks if he has a boyfriend and Lito says "not anymore". Nomi asks what happened and Lito says he got scared. He states that in movies, he plays the hero all the time but in real life he's a coward.


In her prison cell, Sun is reading a book beside Soo-Jin, who is stitching. A guard calls for prison 773, and informs Sun that she has a visitor. Sun goes to the visiting room and sees her father, Kang-Dae. Both of them sit down at the table. Kang-Dae thanks her again for what she did. He admits that he has not slept since the her false arrest and Sun says she never slept so well. He says that he's not a good person, but when Mi-Cha was alive, he was better because of her. He tells Sun that when she died, he thought a part of him died with her, but realizes that it didn't because it was Sun. He says that his wealth is meaningless without his daughter and Sun tears up from what he said. Kang-Dae informs her that he plans to tell the truth to the authorities.

Lito and Nomi

Lito recounts he and Hernando's first date. Lito says that the museum is the only place in Mexico City where you can experience Diego Rivera. Lito explains the piece that they are facing in front of and tells the story of the painting. As Lito talk, Lito flashbacks where present day Nomi is Lito and Lito is Hernando. Hernando takes Lito's place and he continues what Lito said in the present. Lito remembers how he used to listen to Hernando talk about art for hours. He has a flashback to their first kiss in the museum bathroom. He tells Nomi that their first kiss was a religious experience. Lito compares his fellatio on Hernando like Holy Communion where he took him into his mouth.

Nomi relates to the power of a kiss. Lito tells Nomi that he had told Hernando from the beginning conditions when being in a relationship with him. Nomi asks what went wrong and Lito says that he was afraid that he'll lose everything he worked for. She says that when she was young, she used to love dolls and, her father didn't forgive her for that. The continue their conversation in Nomi's location. Nomi tells the story of her father forcing her to join the swim club when she was eight, thinking that she would become more masculine. At that time, she wasn't comfortable with her body, and showered with her clothes on. Nomi flashes back to the day the other boys ganged up on her. In the flashback, present day Nomi occasionally takes the place of her younger self. She was teased, stripped and held in front of burning hot shower water. She screams in pain while the boys laugh at her. The water from the shower was so hot that it gave Nomi permanent scars. Lito reacts angrily to the flashback. Lito sympathizes Nomi. Nomi says that the moment made her "the woman that she is," when she decided that she didn't want to be one of the boys. She says that the violence the boys make is true to who they are and that the real violence is the ones they do to themselves. Nomi and Lito end their visit, leaving Lito in the museum.


Kala makes a chai when Rajan walks up on her. She said she made chai for herself and him too. Kala notices Rajan's unease face and asks him frankly. Rajan says he's embarrassed to tell Kala, after all she'd been through, that Sahana wants to see her. Rajan and Kala visits Sahana at Manendra's hospital room. Sahana tells Kala to sit beside her. Sahan acknowledges that Kala prays at the temple often. She says she was born in Bombay and prayed often at the Shree Siddhivinayak temple. She says that after her marriage with Manendra, Manendra didn't want her to pray. Sahan says that Manendra is a good person, as he helps and cares about people. Sahana asks Kala to pray to Shree Ganesh that Manendra is a good man. Kala and Shana pray to their deities for Manendra's recovery.


Sven drives Riley and pull up to a graveyard by the sea. Sven tells Riley that he and Gunnar visit the graves often, playing music and sit with the graves. He says that sometimes he didn't want to go to the grave sometimes and Gunnar says that he didn't do it for his dead loved ones, but he did it whenever he misses Riley. Riley exits the car and visits the graves of Magnus and Luna, her deceased husband and child. She apologizes to the graves for not seeing them sooner. She talks to the grave of Magnus and has a flashback of Magnus riding a horse indoors, to pick up Riley from school. In the flashback, Riley has straight brown hair. She tells to the grave of Magnus that her present day self is different because her past self is dead along with them. She looks and touches the grave and starts to tear up.


Back in her apartment, Nomi arranges the mess when she hears the doorknob of the front door being turned. Nomi grabs a knife and slowly walks over to the door, when suddenly Amanita enters. Nomi is overwhelmed and drops the knife as Amanita comes to hug her. They hug each other tightly. Amanita says she knew she'd find Nomi at their old apartment and Nomi knew that Amanita would find her. Amanita asks Nomi if she's okay and she says now that she's here, she is. Amanita kisses her and they hug again.

Capheus and Riley

In Nairobi, Capheus enters his bus with an unease face. He looks at the rear-view mirror and sees a teary eyed Riley in the back seat. Capheus greets Riley and asks how her experience was in Iceland. Riley didn't answer so Capheus asks if she wanted to be in Nairobi and she nods. Capheus stands up from the drivers seat and sits beside Riley. Capheus relates to her, he says that he has been wishing that this day would never come. At the Iceland graves, Riley tells Capheus that she never went to the funeral. Capheus asked if she said goodbye, and she answers, "death doesn't let you say goodbye". She says that death only carves holes in someone's life, future and heart.

Capheus sighs from what Riley said and tells her the story of his sister. Capheus flashbacks to the memory. Shiro is collecting water from a stream and Young Capheus holds his newborn sister. Shiro looks at Capheus and the baby. Capheus says that he loved her but they didn't have any food and Shiro was unable to lactate. Shiro hands over the baby to a local children's home. Shiro holds onto Capheus while she cries and Capheus looks at his sister being taken away. He says it was the hardest thing he's ever done. He said that he cried a lot as if his sister died, and said that in a way she did die. But he says that after his sister was handed over, she lived. Capheus tells Riley that life and death are mixed, and that some endings are beginnings. Capheus places his hand on to Riley back and comforts her.


They relax in bed and wear butter cookies as if they are rings. Amanita compares their situation to a fictional character hiding in plain sight. Amanita asks if they are safe in the apartment, and Nomi reassures her that she used Will's badge number to file a police report saying that Nomi was seen on a flight to Australia. Amanita suggest that they go to their friend's place instead. Nomi disagrees since she doesn't want what happened to Grace to repeat. She says that she doesn't want her trouble hurting other people. Amanita holds Nomi's hand and corrects her, saying "our trouble" and not just Nomi's trouble. Nomi kisses Amanita and they feed each other butter cookies.


Lito is back in his apartment, moping. It is near sunset. He eats icecream and stands by the patio ledge. He repeatedly calls Hernando's phone but only reaches his voicemail. He repeatedly calls Hernando with his small easily manageable problems. He gets drunk on blended drinks. This continues until nightfall, with Lito getting more distraught and desperate. He moves from depression into acceptance, saying that he let Hernando down, and he let Dani down. Lito tells Hernando's voicemail that he has many voices in his head, but Hernando's is the only one he can't live without. The call ends abruptly, as Hernando's mailbox is full. Lito mopes again but then he sees a gun on his floor. He grabs the gun and places a gun in his mouth. Lito pulls the trigger but a small flame appears, as the gun is only a lighter made to look like a gun. He says that everything in his life is a fake, and all that he knows how to do is a lie.



Guest Starring[]


Sensate Connections[]


Mad World (uncredited) Written by Roland Orzabal

Performed by Marius Furche (nstrumental version)

Knockin' on Heaven 's Door written by Bob Dylan

Performed by Antony and the Johnson's

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Memorable Quotes[]

Nomi: The real violence, the violence that I realize is unforgivable, is the violence we do to ourselves.

Riley: Death doesn't let you say goodbye.

See Also[]

A complete overview of this episode's crew can be found here.